Facing my fears

Lately I've had to face some of my fears. First off I hate flying. My anxiety goes off the charts, I get sick to my stomach, and I always think the littlest bump or dip in the air means we're goin' down. Ironically, I love to travel. Ahh, if only I didn't have to fly to my destinations, I would take a train to Africa if I could! The last trip I went on was the Palm Springs two years ago and I think I got a little better. It did help that I was traveling with my friend Grace who's in the air force, she was annoyed but helped me realized everything was fine. However this summer I will be traveling A TON, and doing some flying by myself which is a first! To start off I will be traveling from PDX to DC to Jo'berg to Zimbabwe. Count it people that's three different flights. Three different LONG flights. Then back to the east coast when I go to NYC to visit Maggie only 3 weeks after! Crap, I'm a lucky girl but I need to really learn to calm myself for all this flying, really face my fears, and if all else fails I need Ambien! Also to travel to Africa I need vaccinations. Lucky for me, the girl who has passed out EVERY SINGLE TIME I have gotten a shot. I've also passed out when my mom's gotten blood drawn, when I worked the blood drive, and pretty much every other time I've been to the doctor. It's really an issue. I'm not really sure why it happens but it does and thinking about getting these shots makes me even feel a little faint now. But I'm 20 years old, damnit, I need to grow up buck up and just do it! Lastly, and on a much smaller level, I'm afraid of horses. I love them.I think they are absolutely beautiful creatures but they scare the daylights out of me. I think it's because they can sense fear, my fear, and because they are so gosh darn big. I had to take pictures with horses a while back and it definitely showed in my pictures how scared I was! In the photo shoot I did last weekend with Madelynn she had me up close and personal with lots of different horses. But I faced my fears and by the end of it I was holding their tales and giving them kisses on their nose!